Recurring Nightmare - Part 2

 Longing to escape,

Deep aching inside.


Constant haunting, relentless in my head,

Insanity consumes -

Existential dread.


Everything you did; that now you cannot do;

Fill my whole being – Terror. Agony.

When darkness fills the room.


Knowledge you can’t get to me, never offers hope.

You’re in my psyche, never abiding –

Tugging on the rope.


I long to rise, face the conscious world

But, I’m paralysed, trapped by fear – 

Again, a little girl.


Screaming out into the silence,

No-one hears my silent prayers -

Please, someone help me.


And there you are; laughing at me.

Manically cackling -

Torturing, hounding, belittling me.


STOP IT! You cannot hurt me – NO MORE!

I refuse to let you steal any more of me.


Yearning to be at liberty from your dark, sadistic hold –

To live my life, not just survive.


But...


There you are stalking my thoughts,

Causing havoc in my head.


Every solitary time –

especially when I go to bed.


Stop dementing me; I'm fighting to be strong.

This nightmare - I can’t take this.

I’ve lived it far too long.


I pray to God, or whoever hears;

please let me wake, live my years.


Banishing you with all creation, 

My family, art, music,

Bringing me such elation.


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